Actually....

I forgot that I can schedule posts, so I think I shall schedule this one to occur sometime in the next few days. It will be a surprise to all of us.

I've been through some serious shit lately. Things haven't worked out exactly as I wanted or expected, but I can make a choice of letting it turn me into a bitter old hag, or I can shake it off and move on. I choose to shake it off. I refuse to let anyone or anything destroy who I am at my core.

I've been thinking a lot of about Happiness vs. Contentment. To me, happiness is fleeting. It is a new television, a new puppy, a new relationship. THINGS make us happy but the happiness only lasts until something knocks us off of our happy pedestal, such as a broken remote, a pee puddle or infidelity. Contentment, however, comes from within. I choose to be content with my life because the alternative is too difficult to deal with on a day to day basis. I can be happy in the morning and be pissed off in the afternoon, but none of that will affect my basic contentment with who I am and how I choose to live my life. Basic contentment gets me through a lot of bad times. Can fleeting happiness do that? I wouldn't think so, but that is just my opinion.

Who knows, maybe I am just confusing contentment with blind oblivion. Whatever it takes to get me through the day. I choose to be content. I choose to be comfortable in my own skin, regardless of what has been done around me.