I Come Before Thy Throne of Graaaaace....

And throw myself upon my faaaaace. I know that I am but a woooorm.... so step on me God and watch me squirrrrrm.

I don't feel well. In fact I feel awful. I came back from Oklahoma sick. Sick enough that I have stayed in bed since I got home and JC is waiting on me like a nurse tending to someone in their last moments of life. Apologies to the people sitting next to me on the plane. You're next.

What's weird about it all is that church hymns have been stuck in my head for the last two days. I keep humming and singing them. I'm either 1) delirious; or 2) near death.

Jeeeeeeeesus hold my hand I neeeeed thee every hour. Through this pilgrim laaaand protect me by they power... heeeaaaar my feeble pleaaaaa ohhh Lorrrrd look down on meeeee. When I kneel in prayer I hope to meet you there blessed Jeeeeesus hold my hannnnnnd......

*cough cough sniff*

Actually....

I forgot that I can schedule posts, so I think I shall schedule this one to occur sometime in the next few days. It will be a surprise to all of us.

I've been through some serious shit lately. Things haven't worked out exactly as I wanted or expected, but I can make a choice of letting it turn me into a bitter old hag, or I can shake it off and move on. I choose to shake it off. I refuse to let anyone or anything destroy who I am at my core.

I've been thinking a lot of about Happiness vs. Contentment. To me, happiness is fleeting. It is a new television, a new puppy, a new relationship. THINGS make us happy but the happiness only lasts until something knocks us off of our happy pedestal, such as a broken remote, a pee puddle or infidelity. Contentment, however, comes from within. I choose to be content with my life because the alternative is too difficult to deal with on a day to day basis. I can be happy in the morning and be pissed off in the afternoon, but none of that will affect my basic contentment with who I am and how I choose to live my life. Basic contentment gets me through a lot of bad times. Can fleeting happiness do that? I wouldn't think so, but that is just my opinion.

Who knows, maybe I am just confusing contentment with blind oblivion. Whatever it takes to get me through the day. I choose to be content. I choose to be comfortable in my own skin, regardless of what has been done around me.

Merry Christmas

As is probably fairly obvious from my last post, things haven't been very happy here in Happy Land, but are settling down again (I think). I haven't blogged because it would have been very depressing for the two of you who read this, so I have made a deliberate attempt to spare you.

HOWEVER....

I found this and have been having a good time making this animation for your viewing pleasure.



I am flying off into the sunset tomorrow evening, going to spend Christmas with my family and my darling grandmunchkin Brookelet.



If you've hung out with me for any length of time, you probably know the drill. Parents house, dial up internet (ewww spit phhtooey), and the fact that they know nothing about this blog and I prefer to keep it that way, and the fact that I am NEVER NEVER alone when I am there, and the fact that I totally intend to spend every waking moment with that adorable face... that means more than likely no posts until after Sunday when I fly back to Happy Land.

So... Merry Christmas to everyone. I wish nothing but contentment to both of you. ;-)

Insight

Insight is something you gain when you have lived (or are living) through something awful. Insight makes you look back on your actions and think.. ah yes, that is where I went wrong. Insight builds wisdom, but can also build bitterness if not handled correctly.

Life never turns out the way you expect it to. There are no happy endings. How's that for insight?

Word Of The Day

Douchenozzle

hahahahahahaaahahahaaa

Oh.My.God that made me giggle.

Yesterday I was called Slut Bucket in an email. I liked that one too.

HAHAHA

Whew - early morning giggles are the best.